Jealousy of  love ......... !!!


Why ...wh ,, whaa ,, whhhh ....why ,,  ohhh why
This happened to me .... form these days
I can’t control it ,,
I can’t hold it ,,
I can’t shut it,,
Why why why
You ruined my niceness of soul... what this ,, what it is ...

Ohhh mad man....
This is love & love jealousy ,,
heat of love & love jealousy
virus of love & love jealousy

Can’t see you happy ......with stranger....
You can do this ,, only with me..,,.
Else ,, what’s happening here...……..

Abuse you thousand times... ..to keep away
but still waiting on doorstep side.....
 I can’t keep you,,
but I can’t loose you ,,....really.....

Ohhh mad man ..... oh bad man
This is love & love jealousy
Heat of love & love jealousy
Virus of love & love jealousy

You can’t go outside alone.. ...
You can do this.... only with me ,,
I will take you to worldwide tour... only with me..
but don’t move alone even in street
Else,, what’s happening here

You can’t call anyone......
you can hang on whole day ..... only with me,,
If yours line busy...
else,, what’s happening here......

Nobody can appreciate you,,
Only I can do this,,
Else,, what’s happening here

Even ,,you shut up .....
You can’t do this .....
You can fight with me
You can abuse me
You get anger with me.....
else,, what’s happening here.....

Please understand
Please stay with me

I can’t control love & love jealousy
I can’t hide love & love jealousy
I can’t shut it.... just love me ......

Saw you ..... !!!

First I saw you ,, you say hi ,,with mesmerising eye 
By the time I say hi ,, by then heart had came out.....
Keep it inside,, but it exciting to see you more 
Set the hair ,, wipe the face ,, control the beats 
Came close to you ,, with smiles 
Don’t have a word but want to talk lot..
And just say ,,,,........

Whatever is feeling good 
Feeling good ,, feels so good 
Feeling smile 
Feeling shy
But 
I feel so good 

START UP...………..!!!

Sitting on chair ,,thinking out of loud...…
mind get a switch,, to next level ,,very high ,, 
virtual plan act so high,, actual were it is lie.....
everything start in mind,, at the last always end up in mind ..
start for big ,,but finding the way it start ,, can't find

Do you think ,,I am made it ,, I made it ……
do you think ,,can I make it ,, I make it 
do you think,, can I start it ,, I start it …. 

by follow the my rule ,, breaking your rule …
roll the plan ,, join the time,, hard boiling blood try …
this take a time,,
then time wanna try 
to make ,,I weak
to make ,, I loose 
to make ,, I run ……………….. away …….
but ..

do you think ,, can I,, do this 
do you think ,, can I leave it ,, leave it...
do you think ,, can I start it ,, start it ….

till the end ,, till the breath ,, 
till the I make it ,, till the I break it ,, 
till I made it ,, till  I make it...….  
till I start it ,, I cant leave it....
till the my last breath ,,I cant leave it ..
I cant leave it ,, I cant loose it
I made it ,, I make it ...………….!!!

  

  

Love of darkness......!!!


Heart just get out for die,, can’t breathe inside 
Suffocation in memory,, breathe get chocked 
Mind is fatal corrupt,, 
vision getting blurry cause vaporised acid in eye...
I want to hide ,,can’t runaway on love side,,
In light ,can’t hide, my impatience eye ,,who sink to die......

time just bound with hell and lives nowhere ,,just here
In the darkness 
In the darkness.....holes life in the darkness 

Love of the darkness ..... love darkness 
Love of darkened of darkness 
  
Eye get heavy ,, volcano rolled in eyes 
Ocean of pain start to laugh with broken heart,,
Shine of smiles roaring deep of darkness inside
Like a fool , 
smile  and  silent roaring killing me inside 
Hide in room,, for hide the truth 
Try to quit ...try to end this by using  darkness 
 Try to came Next day will come soon after darkness 

After darkness.... 
after darkness.... 
Cause I love the darkness 
Love of darkness 
Darkness of love 

Love of darkness.........!!!

The Weakness Of  BAD Time....!!!
..

The biggest mistake of time it ,, it is eat itself …
may be it is ,,
bad time or good time …. it will finished over passing of time. 
how amazing factor ,, isn't …???

so why …?
if you going through a bad time ,, you worry ,, it will change within 3 days definitely .
if you had a bad day today ,, may be next day ,, may be 3 day ,,.....
may be for next month, for next year ,, may be 2 year ,, may be 3 year ,, …………… but 4 year it will change sure.
ohhhhhh .. ….. mad man, it just happened in 3 day only , it not a take time as long you think.

In good days ….just enjoy , because it is so rear ..
In bad days …… 1st , keep clam , 2nd : help other , when you doing help , you feel happiness from inside it help you to heel yourself. 
And
Good Or Bad time  …...
It just passes with time....!!!

Loop Hole ..........!!! 

Loop hole present every where... 
mean everywhere .... that’s truth...

Even in the GOD creation...


It doesn’t matter you apply it ,where, how,why, and but it presented.
Hart thing can break softly 
Soft things can break hardly 

Anything is possible fullfill the loop hole theory....
 Everywhere in nature... you can find loop hole.





 

Focus.....!!!

Focus on those things which is important for life...... but you can’t.
Then make a long time visions and always keep in your mind...
Why ..? You don’t focus 
Cause I love other thing not my goal...

Circle Of  Life ……….!!!

In 2009, I was in collage ..new admission. Life was boring , just does study and goes to home , next day, repeated again and again over time .

year of year ….. continued with next year also.

life was boring but exciting, happy to do noting ,live life boring style , …..still enjoy. Try to innovate new thing in mind and some physical , some happened and something not.

The boy was so intelligent ,highly & good in attitude, cute , handsome ,creative ,funny , and everybody want be with him and happy person with his life .
when you talk with him , he was so much of high energy in his voice and the way of talking ..superb, thought … positive, different thinking... beyond the league of world, favorite one …….. " be in NAGATIVE with your own thought and search positivity which meet your goal. "
he love devil symbol, and much like of them ….

So where I am …. ? 

So passing of year ….making lot of friends ,theory of life, evolved himself, making and changing new attitude .
In one of his friend , Parveen.... came in role ..and his life..
life turn in new...…………………..


(To Be Continue...………..) 
   
          
   
  

Bad days ....!!!
Part -2

It came back ... and ruin my life’s Prosperity, intelligence,decisions ,all possible thing, it can take....till it make  me useless.
If the time is good ,you can challenge the GOD , “ if you have power , let’s do it”.
If bad day .... anybody spilts on you mouth, even dog f**k you.

Then go outside, talk to your friends.. they can’t solve it , but you feel lighter and relax.
If you need someone to express your situation ... don’t share, talk to yourself... because you know what is main problem and it root cause.
Don’t ask for solutions, just tell the story....
confused. ....... ?
My mean to say , don’t shear to everyone, instead of one & tell the story, not ask solution , firstly try  with you .

कोशिस ......… !!! 

(भाग - २ )

कोशिस आखिर कर ही ली मैंने ,

वो आखिर भी , जिसे मैंने करने से अपने आप को रोका हुआ था। 

फिर क्या था , हो गयी शुरू जहाँ से छोड़ा था,

तोड़े दिन सही चला , फिर वही। .. 

लगा की, क्यों की मैने कोशिस , फिर से। 

जो पहले था , और जो किया था , सही था वही । 

पर निकम्मा दिल था , जो ये  गलती कर बैठा , फिर से ,

पूछो तो कहता है , में क्या करू ...... नहीं होता मुझ से ,

मैने बोला था, की थोड़ा कठोर बन जा,

पर ये थोड़ा तो हो गया , पर शायद इतना काफी नहीं था ।

तभी तो हो गया फिर से.........  कोशिस कर रहा हूँ , फिर से। 

अश्रु का थोड़ा सहारा हे, और ये उदासी साथ दे देती है 

वरना तो जीना मुश्किल है 

थोड़ा टूट रहा हु , थोड़ा थक रहा हूँ 

 मै ,कर क्या रहा हूँ ......?

उम्मीद से आशा है ,की सब सही हो जाएगा ....... 

पर अभी तो ऐसा नहीं है ,

कोशिस कर रहा हू , थोड़ा मर  रहा हू ,

देख़ते है , क्या होगा आगे। ......... 

जो भी हो , अगर मैने जैसा सोचा है ,वैसा हो तो अच्छा है ,

वरना,...... 

कोशिस , तो कर ही रहा हूँ। 

Bad days .....!!!

Bad days ..comes in everybody’s life, sometimes it cross there limits not the single time ,but again & again when ,till it get enough.....!!
That is time or movement to ,enjoy it ....
Look around... how the things change according to bad time.....it beautiful, ....isn’t?
You plan for something ,then time change according to it pre-define results... and you shocked..how and why this ,happened to me? , then just smile and enjoy....
Then plan second... it failed also... then you stand there and think “ it also”...
then third plan... it failed just top of bad .... then you - what the hell is going on hole day it also ..
Plan fourth.. then you start saying.. I am doing this, it will also fail, you start doing the thing ... stop.!
Then mind thinking “ what happened hole day”.......!
Then plan fifth.... again failed.....
Don’t worry..... buddy...
Bad day ...finished............:  because night came.... day over..!
It can’t treat you bad any more .,,, just enjoy
Wait for next day.....
if it also bad day ... don’t worry, night will come soon...!!! To finish it ... isn’t?

HELP  !!!

Simple word , but if need this one, then this is biggest game changer of your life, your lifestyle and sometime savior. It has power to heel you, pain reliefer, hope of anguish or distress.

So....how I get help from other?

1st start help other..if  you need..
1.     Education , then educate other free of cost, you got higher knowledge compression of your self study. 
2..   Job , help other to get their jobs to search then you can find that, you found your best job.
3.    Love, want love then to give others everyone , it come to you automatically. 
4.     Money , want it then give it in poor people  who really need this , one day they help you to make large money empire ,not to them who no need of this.
5.     Respect, give everyone because if you keep your ego down , then they reply you good enough as per your expiations. 

TRY IT NOW...ONE OF ABOVE THING, YOU GOT SAME RESULT AS WRITEN THRIE...…. HELP !

IMPOSSIBLY  !!! 

All the world talk about one thing, that is .." impossible is noting, every thing is possible". 
Really ..is it truth .....?
what happen about those thought "who tell us , if you do evil thing then you get bad thing , if you act good then you find good result in all respect. 
but...impossible , where it is?
i said...it can not that i do all the bad things in the world but i didn't get evil things or bad results instead i get good thing .....why this is not possible , because every thing is possible ,isn't?
same thing applicable to other all of universe objects. 
there is always third way between good or bad..........remeber.!!!!!!!!!!!   
  

Confusion !

Often it comes, when someone has two ways to take decisions.
 When you feel that both ways are fine and you want to choose the best path, then there is confusion . It scares you very badly, it's just your fear to not take decisions, nothing else.

उलझन !

अक्सर ये तब आती है , जब  किसी के पास दो रास्ते होते है फैसले लेने के लिए। जब आपको लगता है , की दोनों रास्ते ठीक है और दोनों में कमियाँ भी है और आप सबसे अच्छा वाला रास्ता चुनना चाहते हो , तब उल्जन होती है।  ये बहुत बुरी तरीके से आपको डरती है , ये सिर्फ आपका डर है फैसले न लेने के लिए, और कुछ नहीं।  

कोशिश !!!

बहुत कोशिश  की उसको मानाने की ,पर में हर गया। 
सब से लड़ लिया पर , तेरी जिद से जीत नहीं पाया। .

कोशिस कर कर के हर गया ,फिर कर के आखिरी भी ,
पर मन का विश्वास था , पर वो भी हार गया। 

अब तो उम्मीद न थी ,पर सच पूछो तो आस है बाकी,
वास्तविकता और उम्मीद की लड़ाई है ,बाकी। 
अभी शायद और कोशिस है  बाकी। 

हारता में रोज हु ,सोचता हु जीत पाऊँगा 
अब तो हर शाम , हार ही होती है ,
और रोज सुबह, उम्मीद में कोशिस जीत की। 


 ये कैसा भाव है ,बता नहीं सकता ,
कैसे खड़ा हु समझा भी नहीं सकता ,
रोज कैसे कर लेता हु,हैरान तो मै भी हूँ ,
इस मानव रूप में कौन हु, कोई समझा भी नहीं सकता। 

तुज से कैसे कह दू ,की तू गलत है ,
तू तो बिना कुछ कहे ही अलग है। 
हर बार तेरा उल्टा -सीधा सुन लेता हु ,
क्योकि सिर्फ एक यही तो आस है 
कम से कम मेरे पास है।  

तेरी हार बात मुझको सिर्फ कोसतीं है 
नोचती है ,
नफरत होगी इतनी ,सोचा तो नहीं कभी था 
पर ये बात दिल पे लगती है, पर तू मुझे बहुत अच्छी लगती है। 
डरता हु की , तू छोड़ के न चली जाये मुझको 
इसलिए थोड़ा सुन लेता हूँ , रो लेता हूँ। 
तोड़ी और कोशिस कर लेता हूँ। 

बस  थोड़ा टुटा हूँ , हार गया हूँ 
कोशिस की थी आखरी , फिर तेरी जिद जीत  गयी 
सोचा आखरी कोशिस , एक और सही 
फिर मिल गयी उसमे हार ,सही। .....
…

सोचा एक बार अंतिम कोशिस और ,कर लेता हु,
पर बस ,बहुत हुआ ये कोशिश-कोशिस 
 फिर और कभी होगी ये ,अंतिम  कोशिस,
पर आज नहीं होगी , ये अंतिम कोशिस।!!!!!!!!!!!! 

REGRATION ! 

It often come, when we leave something or someone. ..  Mostly.

but why it happen ..cause of fear or fear of learn new things and its related pain. 

or stay in comfort zone ,that way we feel pain of that comfort and then regard come in notice . 

TRY……
Not the END, till you DIE.

थोड़ा तो कठोर बन। 

कभी कठोऱ बने हो....... . नहीं या शायद हाँ। 

कभी बन के देखो, बहुत मुश्किल चीज़  है,  पर जबरजस्त है। जब तुम कठोर होते हो , तो तुमे कोई तोड़ नहीं सकता , जब तोड़ नहीं पाते , तो तुमरे आगे झुक जाते है। 

अक्सर ये वहाँ मिलेगा " जहाँ प्यार होता है " और जब दिल टूट जाता है और आप, अपने आप को संभालने लिए ,अपने विचारो पर ,मन पर , और दिल से  जब ,कठोर होते हो। 

हारा हुआ आदमी। 

हारा हुआ आदमी , कुछ नहीं होता , सब कुछ बकवास होता है। 

जिंदगी तो काट ही जायगी ,तोडा रो के ही सही।